What I'm not supposed to tell you...

What I am supposed to tell you is that my childhood was normal, with a normal dysfunctional family.

What I'm not supposed to tell you is I was sexually abused when I was a child, by my fathers, step-father.

What I am supposed to tell you is I lied about everything I ever told my counselors growing up.

What I'm not supposed to tell you is that its all true, and it still effects me today.

What I'm supposed to tell you is that I lie and use those lies to get my way and stay home on my ass all the time.

What I'm not supposed to tell you is that my panic attacks are real, and I some days I cant function in public.

What I'm supposed to tell you is: Everything is fine, and I will be OK!

What I'm not supposed to tell you is the truth; what I'm supposed to tell you is a lie.

What I'm not supposed to tell you is that my PTSD and Borderline is real.

What I'm supposed to tell you is, I'm normal.

I'm not normal.

Now I am going to tell the truth.

This blog will be Truth.

No more lying.

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